In case you didn't notice, the incident with the mirror yesterday hurt my self esteem a little bit. I have to be honest, and this may sound weird, but yesterday was the first day I have really looked at myself in the mirror and really didn't like what I saw. I don't know, it's hard to explain. I think that I have lived in denial about being overweight for so long, or at least justified or to the point where I thought everything was ok, that now that I have acknowledged it, I am seeing myself with a new set of eyes. I think this is only going to help me in the future. It's like the saying goes, "The truth will set you free." I want to be free from this. I am so tired of it. The problem is that I want results NOW. I just need to calm down and keep on working. Results will happen. Start small, do it right, grow it strong. I heard that in a sermon from my pastor a few weeks ago and he's right.
Anyways, weigh day is 3 days away. I am so excited. I am seeing some definite improvements. My pants are looser, my belt isn't doing it's job anymore, time to downsize. I have a chestbone, which is amazing. I can't remember when I felt a bone in my upper body. My wedding ring is sliding off my finger. Oh, and I can jog half a mile. Ok, not straight, but I am jogging. Pam and I would walk half a lap then jog half a lap. It's a start, considering I just started doing it what... a week ago? I can score 5 stars in Dance Central. One day, I will be as good as my friend Sarah, but until then, I will dance in her shadow. When I can properly do the Marquez Wiggle, I will feel like I have accomplished something (an inside joke with some friends of mine, but trust me, when I can do it right, I will video and post it here.) So other than that, I have nothing to report. Another pretty good day, I'm not sure how many calories the nachos we ate tonight had, but I think I kept it close to the 1800-2000 mark. If not, "Bust a Move" and "Days go By" got me back down there. Dance Central is an awesome game. Well...that's all folks. Goodnight!
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