Yes, Sara, it HAS been a while since I posted, thanks for holding me accountable.
There really isn't anything to post. That means bad things are happening. I am slowly creeping in to my old habits. Vacation really stalled me. I took a week off, so I quit walking every morning. I was justifying it by all the work that was going on around the house. I conquered the 5k. Now what?
I have to continually set goals to keep me motivated. I know this is a long term commitment to better living and healthy standards, but it's hard. To be honest, it was real discouraging doing the 5k. It's hard to see people doing things so easily whereas for me, it is so difficult.
I am tired of walking. I wish there was some way to exercise besides just walking. Honestly, I think it would be easier if I had people doing it with me. I like to compete, it would be cool to race or lift more or do better than someone else, or have someone beat me so it gives me incentive to try harder. Walking is boring.
I've had a pretty rough time since I got back from vacation. It has been so busy and stressful at work, which provokes eating. It is addictive behavior, I am aware. At least I am out of the denial phase. Now I have to learn how to cope, and that is the difficult part. I have figured out the "Don't beat yourself up" part, but I am tired of getting there.
I've lost momentum. It feels like crap. Will try to do better tomorrow...
Yoda says, "Try not. Do, or do not. There is no try."
I WILL do better tomorrow...
Don't get discouraged! You know this is a journey and with that there are ups and downs. Just don't give up!! As long as you are determined to stick with it, you will be fine...more than fine, you will be GREAT! Tackle today, then tackle tomorrow....one step at a time! I am praying for you brother!! =)
ReplyDeleteThis so sounds like me. I get tired of using what little brain power I have most days to think about eating healthy.Planning is key with me:) But I just have to remind myself that it is exactly that kind of thinking that got me here. I am determined to live healthy! Being highly allergic to wheat gluten is such a pain, but it's no excuse for indulgence. Life is more than food, it's JESUS, family, and friends and I want to enjoy more of those:)!! You can do it Jeremy!!! And I bet there's someone that wants to exercise with you to make it more fun! I'll be praying that the Lord will show you and gift to you a die-hard accountability partner:) Thanks for sharing and you and Pam and your beautiful children are such a blessing to know!
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