Two Steps Forward...

Been busy renovating, so here's the update...

So, to be totally honest, it has been a crappy couple of days. The thing about victory is the thought that you are invincible. When you have worked hard and achieved some success, you think you deserve some time off. When you have been eating Lean Cuisines for weeks, you think you deserve some pizza. Maybe even some Chinese food. And then, as soon as you let your guard down, you get hit hard.

But this time, I refuse to stay down.

I really have to accept that this isn't a temporary fix or a band-aid, this is the way life is going to be from now on. I can't lose all the weight and go back to eating the old crap I used to or quit exercising, or I will be back to where I am now. I have got to get sick and tired of being this way. And I am. I am so tired of it. I just want to be done with it all.

Well enough of that. I just needed to confess and vent. Tomorrow is a new day. Weigh day is 4 days away. I am prepared to suck bad. I will try a last minute effort to lose as much as possible. I see some painful ankles and knees in my future.